Sometimes you wake up from a dead sleep and it can be felt as "a bad thing"...everyone needs rest, but when the mind, or is it the spirit, won't shut down, you just have to roll with it.
Sometimes the wee hours of the morning, or late hours of the evening, can take us to a place that is quiet and still and our thoughts can go to places that mix with sad and happy. Times that come and times that fade, because we all know memories never go away, they just fade into the background, but sometimes, they can come back as crystal clear as a shiny crystal ball and you can go back in time and touch the moment as if it was right in front of your sleepy eyes. Sometimes it is a good thing to "remember when" even through the moments of painful realization and truth, but embrace sections of a memory that brought us the greatest joy. The wee hours of the morning as the clock ticks so quickly through the quiet will bring things from long ago to the front and as hard as you try to push it to the back, to dismiss it, it appears for a purpose. The past again, becomes very much the present, and you mind keeps you even more from sleeping. Sometimes the past is not such a bad thing. Look at all the beautiful music and vacations and the growth of our children, and loves we have had for many years and maybe some for just fleeting moments of time, but those tiny moments in the realm of days or years become the memories that will appear out of a crystal clear nights sleep and leave of thinking of those special feelings.
Sometimes it feels good to remember all the lovely people, places and things that led our lives into action to take a change or a risk and just live our life as if time had stood still and the only thing felt was that glorious feeling of freedom that made our spirits soar and the rest of the world stand still. The clock stops for just a moment and we can fully embrace what is really happening in our life. Sometimes the days will fly by and the moments will become hours, that we desperately want to slow down or stop and freeze this day just for a little while and maybe steal an extra hour or two to add to such a grand event or person that seemed to have touched us with a brilliance that sent us soaring into the unknown. Sometimes, instead of fighting the urge to crawl back in bed, I will just surrender to the time that is being stolen by my mind which needs so desperately to prepare for the day ahead, and I will go back into my mental scrapbook and relive the moments that brought me such joy. Sometimes, joy can turn to a tiny tear, but even if sadness becomes accustomed to attaching itself to that memory, I will quickly dismiss it as quickly as it came and just remember the warm embrace, the laughter, the nachos, the beach with a slowly setting sun and breeze that forever touches the skin. The sadness of being different now will suddenly be replaced in the morning hours with the thought of the fortunate times I have had in my life and how love and laughter filled the cracks between the difficulties and disappointments that make up the true world. Sometimes we want things to go on forever, and they do, and then sometimes they don't....but we make them forever in our minds in the wee hours of the morning. Sometimes when you want to crawl back into the covers and curse the night as it takes you back to a place of long ago and far away....embrace it, and think of all those lovely times with such happiness. Instead of thinking of loss, or hardship, or disappointment, think of how all of those things have made you who you are, and how fortunate it is that the mind can carry you back to a place where life was perfectly perfect and the world felt like a goose down comforter waiting for you to fall in it and forever be warm with the beauty of memories. Sometimes I just want to be in my life for an hour or two and just live the moments with more time than I actually had when they were happening......Sometimes you have to give thanks for sleepless nights and tired days......You actually are living the dream....just awake! hugs

Sometimes the wee hours of the morning, or late hours of the evening, can take us to a place that is quiet and still and our thoughts can go to places that mix with sad and happy. Times that come and times that fade, because we all know memories never go away, they just fade into the background, but sometimes, they can come back as crystal clear as a shiny crystal ball and you can go back in time and touch the moment as if it was right in front of your sleepy eyes. Sometimes it is a good thing to "remember when" even through the moments of painful realization and truth, but embrace sections of a memory that brought us the greatest joy. The wee hours of the morning as the clock ticks so quickly through the quiet will bring things from long ago to the front and as hard as you try to push it to the back, to dismiss it, it appears for a purpose. The past again, becomes very much the present, and you mind keeps you even more from sleeping. Sometimes the past is not such a bad thing. Look at all the beautiful music and vacations and the growth of our children, and loves we have had for many years and maybe some for just fleeting moments of time, but those tiny moments in the realm of days or years become the memories that will appear out of a crystal clear nights sleep and leave of thinking of those special feelings.
Sometimes it feels good to remember all the lovely people, places and things that led our lives into action to take a change or a risk and just live our life as if time had stood still and the only thing felt was that glorious feeling of freedom that made our spirits soar and the rest of the world stand still. The clock stops for just a moment and we can fully embrace what is really happening in our life. Sometimes the days will fly by and the moments will become hours, that we desperately want to slow down or stop and freeze this day just for a little while and maybe steal an extra hour or two to add to such a grand event or person that seemed to have touched us with a brilliance that sent us soaring into the unknown. Sometimes, instead of fighting the urge to crawl back in bed, I will just surrender to the time that is being stolen by my mind which needs so desperately to prepare for the day ahead, and I will go back into my mental scrapbook and relive the moments that brought me such joy. Sometimes, joy can turn to a tiny tear, but even if sadness becomes accustomed to attaching itself to that memory, I will quickly dismiss it as quickly as it came and just remember the warm embrace, the laughter, the nachos, the beach with a slowly setting sun and breeze that forever touches the skin. The sadness of being different now will suddenly be replaced in the morning hours with the thought of the fortunate times I have had in my life and how love and laughter filled the cracks between the difficulties and disappointments that make up the true world. Sometimes we want things to go on forever, and they do, and then sometimes they don't....but we make them forever in our minds in the wee hours of the morning. Sometimes when you want to crawl back into the covers and curse the night as it takes you back to a place of long ago and far away....embrace it, and think of all those lovely times with such happiness. Instead of thinking of loss, or hardship, or disappointment, think of how all of those things have made you who you are, and how fortunate it is that the mind can carry you back to a place where life was perfectly perfect and the world felt like a goose down comforter waiting for you to fall in it and forever be warm with the beauty of memories. Sometimes I just want to be in my life for an hour or two and just live the moments with more time than I actually had when they were happening......Sometimes you have to give thanks for sleepless nights and tired days......You actually are living the dream....just awake! hugs
