Awwwwwwwwwww...........It's here....AGAIN.....another life altering event that comes like a runaway train, that cannot be stopped until it derails. There isn't a lot you can do about the choices of others, except to accept to not except. I believe in life of free will and all the responsiblity that comes with it. I don't think that it necessarily means that life is an ever going "free for all" where the total act of self consumption takes over the world and before you know it, hearts are left in piles of rubble and everyone is sorting through it to find theirs again. I love free will......I am a "hippie" from the world of peace and love...."no drugs, just hugs" to quote my wonderful cuz....ha ha....(love that cuz). I believe deep in my soul and spirit that the momentum you put into your view of the world will come back to you ten fold. But....what they didn't teach us in "positive school" is that when you see the world full of flowers and sunshine, there is always a dark cloud that can surface and you will be faced with a storm of grand turbulence that can translate itself into a natural disaster. Positive does create positive, but not everyone can live that way. Not everyone has the desire for the "good", the peaceful, the calm. Sometimes drama gets the blood to flow and causes false sensations of happy, when in reality, it is just what it is and the happy gets replaced with the world of make-believe drama. I don't like drama, unless of course it is on Lifetime and someone else is having to be a heart-broken, dumbfounded, what-the-hell just happened female. Is it really so hard for the world to slow to a pace that includes just having an open, honest, relationship? Do we have to get sucked into this place of "stuff is us" and make that the focal point of all existence? I question the world of TV that plays this grandiose role in our world where we are subject to advertising that displays the world of product as being the world. Those "products" are wrapping paper for others to decide how they want to view us. Walking around with the "fancies" is great, you look terrific, you feel on top of the world...but....what price are you going to pay? Does drama come into play when the charge card bill comes or the arguments for more more more money to pay for more more more stuff begin to surface, and before you know it, the day is cluttered with the fight for more, when you had enough to begin with. I don't have the answers to anything anymore. I just take the moments of the day and try to live them with honesty and devotion to the things and people that entered my life. I want/need my sons to know that life does not need to be about having more, but really having less. Having more causes precious time to be spent creating the funds to have the "more". Then time, loving people, friends, pets, fades as the commodity that does not collect an interest rate, nor can you purchase a loan for it, is left unspent because we are busy worrying, working and working and working, always to "get" a higher rate of pay to pay for the things we already have, and just think we need. There is a big difference between needing something and wanting something. Look around you.....do you really need that? Make a promise to yourself....Just today...plan on "spending" your time like it is priceless....you are a millionaire with this day...It is the most "money" you will ever have. Every minute is mega dollars and you must spend it with joy, happiness, honesty, peace and love....You already have a big enough bank account. It is called your life...spend wisely, you cannot replace those "funds". Peace